December 23, 2008

  • Cross Roads at Christmas............


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    First, I would like to thank all my sweet, wonderful Xanga family for stopping by and leaving a comment for my Mom.  She cried at the thought that all these amazing people would stop by and leave such loving words and thoughts for someone that they had never met.

    She said to me “They much love you very much!” 

    I feel very blessed by all of you!

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    I thought about that a lot tonight and about all that transpired today, December 22, my wonderful, beautiful Mother's Birthday.  Today was different for me. 

    I woke up to a phone call from a very unhappy person. After he hung up on me, I decided I would not go to work, take a day off.  Spend it with my son.

    It was a year ago today that I had surgery, surgery that saved my life, but also changed the direction of my life, which in turn have changed the direction of a few other lives that have touched me.

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    I had a wonderful weekend that even I cannot put into words.  Sitting in a restaurant Saturday night, gazing out the window through the softly falling snow I thought to myself, “When I turned 82, like my Mom, I will remember this weekend.  I will hold it in my heart forever; its beauty will never be erased from my soul.”

     I wished I could have been with my Mom today, but because of my work situation I couldn’t do that.  I am also missing my Dad, gone 19 years and one month to the day.  He was my best friend and probably the only mortal man, so far, that ever truly knew and loved me inside and out. 

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    I got showered, dressed, reaching for a shirt that once belonged to my Dad.  Yes, I know it no longer smells of him, I have washed it so many times; it probably wouldn’t even fit him today.  But it does make me feel close to him when I need to feel his love and support.

    Thinking through the changes of my health, my job, my love, my life, I found myself feeling as if I had come to a fork in the road.  It is at these times I miss my Dad most, always sound loving advice, never judgmental.

    He once told me “Don’t ask yourself what the world needs.  Ask yourself what makes you come alive, and go do that, because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”

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    The holiday season is upon us and many have found ourselves standing at forks in the road. Many of us have gathered a few stones in our shoes over this last year that makes the travel more difficult, or perhaps had given us a different purpose to our lives.  I know that is the case for me.

    My Dad use to tell me “Don’t ponder over the what-ifs or whys, neither question your abilities.  Don’t worry about the timing or the future.  Listen for your Creator; test the calling to be sure it is God.  When you know it is Him, simply tell Him, Yes!”

    “When the mighty winds blow, He will miraculously place them at your back.  When the floods begin to rage, He may tell you to keep paddling in faith, believing, while He calms the waters around you.”

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    Our Creator often times puts things or people  in our lives that we cannot explain, or do not understand. Sometimes they don’t seem right or fair.  I believe that my Dad is right, if it is my Creator’s will, all things will work out in His own perfect way and timing. 

    He has a glorious plan, so I should just say yes!

    So for those of you this holiday season whose lives seem to be upside down, inside out or completely wiped out, do not lose faith, hope, and love.  A year ago today I could have done just that, I chose to fight the battle; I chose to believe that my prayers would be heard and answered and I feel one year later they have been.

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    I believe that a year ago my Creator was asking me “What is written in your heart?  What makes you come alive?”

    Today I am so very alive.

    After getting dressed today I walked into the kitchen where my 27 year old son was baking cookies, he looked up at me and asked, “You okay?”

    “Sure I am okay, why would you ask me that?”

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    “You are wearing Grandpa’s shirt, you only wear that when something is really on your mind.”

    I stand corrected; I have 2 mortal men in my life that have known me inside and out.

    Love to all this Holiday Season, many blessings too.

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    Two roads diverged in a wood, and I...

    I always take the one less traveled by,

    And that has made all the difference.


December 19, 2008

  • A tribute to our troops.....

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    When the chilly wind blows aimlessly
    upon the snow covered peaks and across your lonely heart
    When the candles burning, fight to keep their flame glowing


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    Please come home, back to my arms where you belong
    Come December

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    When crystalline colored frost covers the window panes
    upon our cozy, simple place we call home
    When the snow begins to fall..

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    You will be here.
    God willing, my darling
    Come December

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    With you always, I remain to be in body and spirit.

    Please come home,

    Come December

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    God, please protect our soldiers overseas. Guide their every step with you love and light. Give them the strength, courage, and fortitude to fly through the difficult days ahead. Instill calm where there’s anxiety, hope where there’s grief, and comfort where there’s pain. And bring them safely home to their loved ones.

     

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December 18, 2008

  • Warm Winter Love


     

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    As we walk backs to the wind,

    Secret lovers and best of friends,


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    The world around us spins on and on,

    Trying only to reach the next day's dawn;

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    Never knowing what it might show

    Or which way this day's winds will blow;

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    To help us along or slow our pace,

    With the breeze behind us or in our face;

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    We have each other to kiss, to talk...

    To make every day's journey an easy walk

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December 16, 2008

  • History of Santa.............

     


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    Growing up in the Midwest in the 60's and 70's life always seemed wonderful to me.  Christmas was a very special time of year for my family.  My Dad was the original St. Nick I think, his energy, generosity, and love was never ending during the Holidays.  Sometimes I am unsure if he become more Santa like or Christ like, but this seasons seems to share the time with those two images equally. 

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    Christmas morning was always the same wonderful magical time for me.  We would wake up early, 4 or 5 am.  Rule of the house is we could not go downstairs until Dad went down to make sure Santa was gone.  Us 6 kids waiting at the top and not very patiently I might add, my parents went down, we could always hear my Dad talking to someone, then the camera flashing a couple of times and music starting.  Same record every year.  Many times I wish I could find that music again, but back to Christmas morn.  Then we got the all clear and we flew down the stairs.  What laid before us was a magical, toyland of "Chatty Cathy" Dolls, Mary Poppins, Barbies, Bikes, and even more than the gifts was the energy that we enjoyed and shared on Christmas Morning.  Everything was so very special!

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    Now a week or so later we would get our Christmas Pictures back and sure enough there in the pile would be a picture of Santa, standing by our tree, waving or so it seemed.  We fought over who got to take that picture to school first for show and tell. 

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    Now it wasn't until two of my sister's and I were in Junior High that we were flipping through the old family pictures and we notice.......gee.....Santa is always standing in the same position, place, and always waving with the same hand.........no we didn't believe in Santa still, except for maybe in our hearts, but still this was a mystery to us.  Asking my Dad when he came home from work, he went to the basement and returned with a huge cardboard statue of Santa Claus.......duh..........lol......I guess that was the first moment in my life I felt like a blonde........

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    So I guess other than my Basement..............I have to ask where did Santa Come From?

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    THE HISTORY OF SANTA CLAUS

    Santa Claus hasn't always looked like the jolly old fellow we know today. Like so many other American traditions, he's a product of the great American melting pot - a blend of many different cultures and customs. His earliest ancestors date back to pre-Christian days, when sky-riding gods ruled the earth. The mythological characters Odin, Thor, and Saturn gave us the basis for many of Santa's distinctive characteristics.

    But the most influential figure in the shaping of todays generous as loving Santa Claus was a real man, called St. Nicholas of Myra, which is now Turkey, a fourth century bishop. As a champion of children and the needy, he was legendary for his kindness and generosity.

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    A TRADITION OF BENEVOLENCE

    In a well known story illustrating St, Nicholas' benevolence, we find two of the basic principles of the holiday spirit - giving to others and helping the less fortunate - as well as the tradition of hanging stockings by the fireplace.

    According to this legend, there were three Italian maidens whose families had fallen on hard times. Because their father could not afford the dowries necessary for them to marry, he was considering selling one of his daughters into slavery to get dowries for the other two. When the good saint heard of the family's plight, he went to their home late one night and anonymously tossed three bags of gold down the chimney. Miraculously, a bag fell into each of the sisters stockings, were hanging by the fire to dry. His kindhearted gift made it possible for all three sisters to marry.

    A variation of this story is that as each girl was ready to wed, St. Nicholas came in the middle of the night when no one could see him and tossed a bag of gold through an open window into her stocking. The idea of gifts being delivered through an open window may have begun as a way to explain how Santa enters homes that have no chimney.

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    PATRON SAINT

    Because of his wisdom and sensitivity, many groups claimed St. Nicholas as their patron saint. Children, orphans, sailors, and even thieves often prayed to the compassionate saint for guidance and protection. Entire countries, including Russia and Greece, also adopted him as their patron saint, as well as students and pawnbrokers.

    Throughout his life, St. Nicholas tried to help others while inspiring the to imitate his virtues. Legends of his unselfish giving spread all over Northern Europe, and accounts of his heroic deeds blended with regional folklore. Eventually, the image of the stately saint was transformed onto an almost mystical being, one known for rewarding the good and punishing the bad.

    The date of his death, December 6th, was commemorated with an annual feast, which gradually came to mark the beginning of the medieval Christmas season. On St. Nicholas' Eve, youngsters would set out food for the saint, straw for his horses and schnapps for his attendant. The next morning, obedient children awoke to find their gifts replaced with sweets and toys, found their offering untouched , along with a rod or a bundle of switched. St. Nicholas' Day is still observed in many countries, and gifts are exchanged in honor of the spirit of brotherhood and charity that he embodied.

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    THE MAKING OF SANTA CLAUS

    After the Protestant Reformation in the sixteenth century, the feasting and veneration of Catholic saints were banned. But people had become accustomed to the annual visit from their gift-giving saint and didn't want to forget the purpose of the holiday. So in some countries, the festivities of St. Nicholas' Day were merged with Christmas celebrations, and although the gift-bearer took on new, non-religious forms, he still reflected the saints generous spirit.

    In Germany, he appeared as Weihnachtsmann, in England as Father Christmas, and in France, as Pèrè Noël, who left small gifts in the children's shoes.

    In the areas where St. Nicholas was still portrayed as the gift-bearer, a host of other characters developed to be his assistants. Two of his most well-known helpers were Knecht Ruprecht and the Belsnickle. Depending on the local tradition, they were either attendants to St. Nicholas or gift-bears themselves, but in all cases, both were fearsome characters, brandishing rods and switches. It was not only their dusty to reward good children but also to reprove children who were naughty and couldn't recite their prayers.

    Knecht Ruprecht (meaning Servant Rupert) was also by other names such as Black Peter (so called because he delivered the presents down the chimney for St. Nicholas and became blackened with soot).

    In some places, the images, of Knecht Ruprecht and St. Nicholas merged to form Ru Klaus (meaning Rough Nicholas - so named because of his rugged appearance), Aschen Klaus (meaning Ash Nicholas - because he carried a sack of ashes as well as a bundle of switches), and Pelznickle (meaning Furry Nicholas - referring to his fur clad appearance).

    Not all of St. Nicholas' companions were frightening. In fact, the Christkindl (meaning Christ Child) was thought to accompany him in many countries. Often portrayed by a fair-haired young girl, this angelic figure was sometimes the gift-bearer too.

     

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    SANTA IN AMERICA

    Immigrants to the New World brought along their various beliefs when they crossed the Atlantic. The Scandinavians introduced gift-giving elves, the Germans brought not only their Belsnickle and Chistkindle but also their decorated trees and the Irish contributed the ancient Gaelic custom of placing a lighted candle in the window.

    In the 1600's, the Dutch presented Sinterklaas (meaning St. Nicholas) to the colonies. In their excitement, many English-speaking children uttered the name so quickly that Sinterklaas sounded like Santy Claus. After years of mispronunciation, the name evolved into Santa Claus.

    In 1808, American author Washington Irving created a new version of old St. Nick. This one rode over the treetops in a horse drawn wagon "dropping gifts down the chimneys of his favorites." In his satire, Diedrich Knickerbocker's History of New York from the Beginning of the World to the End of the Dutch Dynasty, Irving described Santa as a jolly Dutchman who smoked a long stemmed clay pipe and wore baggy breeches and a broad brimmed hat. Also, the familiar phrase, "...laying his finger beside his nose...," first appeared in Irving's story.

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    That phrase was used again in 1822 in the now-classic poem by Dr. Clement Clarke Moore, "A Visit from St. Nicholas," more commonly know as "The Night Before Christmas." His verse gave an Arctic flavor to Santa's image when he substituted eight tiny reindeer and a sleigh for Irving's horse and wagon. It is Moore's description of Santa that we most often think of today: "He had a broad face, and a little round belly, that shook, when he laughed, like a bowl full of jelly."

    Up to this point, Santa's physical appearance and the color of his suit were open to individual interpretation. Then in 1863, Thomas Nast, a German immigrant, gave us a visual image of the cheerful giver that was to later become widely accepted.

    When Nast was asked to illustrate Moore's charming verse for a book of children's poems, he gave us a softer, kinder Santa who was still old but appeared less stern than the ecclesiastical St. Nicholas. He dressed his elfin figure in red and endowed him with human characteristics. Most important of all, Nast gave Santa a home at the North Pole. For twenty-three years, his annual drawings in Harpers Weekly magazine allowed Americans to peek into the magical world of Santa Claus and set the stage for the shaping of today's merry gentleman.

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    In North American poetry and illustrations, Santa Claus, in his white beard, red jacket and pompom-topped cap, would sally forth on the night before Christmas in his sleigh, pulled by eight reindeer, and climb down chimneys to leave his gifts in stockings children set out on the fireplace's mantelpiece.

    Children naturally wanted to know where Santa Claus actually came from. Where did he live when he wasn't delivering presents? Those questions gave rise to the legend that Santa Claus lived at the North Pole, where his Christmas-gift workshop was also located.

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    In 1925, since grazing reindeer would not be possible at the North Pole, newspapers revealed that Santa Claus in fact lived in Finnish Lapland. "Uncle Markus", Markus Rautio, who compared the popular "Children's hour" on Finnish public radio, revealed the great secret for the first time in 1927: Santa Claus lives on Lapland's Korvatunturi - "Ear Fell"

    The fell, which is situated directly on Finland's eastern frontier, somewhat resembles a hare's ears - which are in fact Santa Claus's ears, with which he listens to hear if the world's children are being nice. Santa has the assistance of a busy group of elves, who have quite their own history in Scandinanvian legend.

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    Artist Haddon Sundblom added the final touches to Santa's modern image. Beginning in 1931, his billboard and other advertisements for Coca Cola-Cola featured a portly, grandfatherly Santa with human proportions and a ruddy complexion. Sunblom's exuberant, twinkle-eyed Santa firmly fixed the gift-giver's image in the public mind.

    Over the centuries, customs from different parts of the Northern Hemisphere thus came together and created the whole world's Santa Claus - the ageless, timeless, deathless white-bearded man who gives out gifts on Christmas and always returns to Korvatunturi in Finnish Lapland.

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    Since the 1950s, Santa has happily sojourned at Napapiiri, near Rovaniemi, at times other than Christmas, to meet children and the young at heart. By 1985 his visits to Napapiiri had become so regular that he established his own Santa Claus Office there. He comes there every day of the year to hear what children want for Christmas and to talk with children who have arrived from around the world. Santa Claus Village is also the location of Santa's main Post Office, which receives children's letters from the four corners of the world.

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    St. Nicholas' evolution into today's happy, larger-than-life Santa Claus is a wonderful example of the blending of countless beliefs and practices from around the world. This benevolent figure encompasses all the goodness and innocence of childhood. And because goodness is his very essence, in every kindness we do, Santa will always be remembered.

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    I believe in Santa...............do you?


December 15, 2008

  • Christmas in my Heart..................


     

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    Lets share that place
    Where forever begins
    The one full of smiles
    With ear to ear grins

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    Lets share in hearts
    Where truth be told
    Be there supporting
    Upkeep and uphold

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    Lets be the listeners
    Where each can rely
    Reaching with hand
    No questioning why

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    Lets be those lights
    In showing the way
    Guide with the heart
    Mean what you say

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    Lets all feel wanted
    In worth and value
    Instill love each day
    Being faithfully true

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    Lets be continuous
    Uplifting to the end
    In loving embraces
    Heartprint a friend

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    Have a great Monday!


December 14, 2008

  • On the Twelfth Day of Christmas...and don't forget it is someone's birthday...

     


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    Well, we are upon the 12 wonderful, glorious days until the Christmas Holiday.  This Christmas I have so very much to thank my Creator for...and I look forward to the beautiful Blessing of the New Year.

    Sitting meditating today, I found myself reflecting on the origins of the song, The 12 Days of Christmas.  Strange lyrics and did people really request those gifts back in earlier times, when this song was first created.  Also when exactly is the 12 Days of Christmas?

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    Most of you that have followed my blog posts over the last years, know I am always questioning the reasons why?  I know I developed this habit early in life, it will be a character flaw that will haunt me to my dying days, but many times it has served a purpose…other times it gets out of control, I guess I just need that one person that politely and lovingly tells me to “Stop it!”

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    Today I researched the history and origin for the 12 days of Christmas.  Which always seemed like a fun, nonsense song for children at Christmas time, but it does hold some hidden sacred meanings.

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    The "Twelve Days of Christmas" are the dozen days in the liturgical calendar of the Western Church between the celebration of the birth of the Christ Child (Christmas, December 25) and the coming of the Magi to visit at his house in Bethlehem (Epiphany, January 6). The Eastern Church celebrates during Epiphany rather than Christmas Day. In Hispanic and Latin American culture, January 6th is observed as Three Kings Day, or simply the Day of the Kings.

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    It is said it came about at a time when the Catholics in northern Europe were prevented from practicing their faith openly or otherwise by law. In England during the years of 1558 to 1829 it was to all intents and purposes a crime to BE a Catholic. I feel that every religion has endured these types of hardships, but we find ways to continue to practice our faith.

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    So 'The Twelve Days of Christmas' was written in England as a kind of Underground Catechism. In fact it was one of the 'catechism songs' to help young Catholics learn the tenets of their faith.

    In short it was a memory aid at a time when to be caught with anything in written form indicating adherence to the Catholic faith could lead to imprisonment or even death.

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    "The 12 Days of Christmas" is in a sense an allegory. Each of the items in the song represents something significant to the teachings of the Catholic faith. The hidden meaning of each gift was designed to help Catholic children learn their faith. The better acquainted one is with the Bible, the more these interpretations have significance.

     

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    The song goes, "On the first day of Christmas my true love gave to me…"

    The "true love" mentioned in the song doesn’t refer to an earthly suitor, but it refers to God Himself. The "me" who receives the presents refers to every baptized person. i.e. the Church.

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    1st Day:

    The partridge in a pear tree is Christ Jesus upon the Cross. In the song, Christ is symbolically presented as a mother partridge because she would feign injury to decoy a predator away from her nestlings. She was even willing to die for them.


    The tree is the symbol of the fall of the human race through the sin of Adam and Eve. It is also the symbol of its redemption by Jesus Christ on the tree of the Cross.

     

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    2nd Day:

    The "two turtle doves" refers to the Old and New Testaments.

     

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    3rd Day:

    The "three French hens" stand for faith, hope and love—the three gifts of the Spirit that abide (1 Corinthians 13).

     

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    4th Day:

    The "four calling birds" refers to the four evangelists who wrote the Gospels—Matthew, Mark, Luke and John—which sing the song of salvation through Jesus Christ.

     

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    5th Day:

    The "five golden rings" represents the first five books of the Bible, also called the Jewish Torah: Genesis, Exodus, Leviticus, Numbers and Deuteronomy.

     

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    6th Day:

    The "six geese a-laying" is the six days of creation.

     

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    7th Day:

    The "seven swans’ a-swimming" refers to the seven gifts of the Holy Spirit: wisdom, understanding, counsel, fortitude, knowledge, piety and fear of the Lord.

     

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    8th Day:

    The "eight maids a milking " reminded children of the eight beatitudes listed in the Sermon on the Mount.

     

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    9th Day:

    The "nine ladies dancing" were the nine fruits of the Holy Spirit found in Galatians 5:22-23: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self control.

     

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    10th Day:

    The "ten lords a-leaping" represents the Ten Commandments

     

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    11th Day:

    The "eleven pipers piping" refers to the eleven faithful apostles.

     

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    12th Day:

    The ‘twelve drummers drumming" were the twelve points of belief expressed in the Apostles’ Creed: belief in God the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit, that Jesus Christ was born of the Virgin Mary, made man, crucified, died and arose on the third day, that he sits at the right hand of the father and will come again, the resurrection of the dead and life everlasting.

    So the next time you hear "the Twelve Days of Christmas" consider how this otherwise non-religious sounding song had its origins in keeping alive the teaching of the Catholic faith. 

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    However, according to A Celebration and History, by Leigh Grant, the written lyrics to "The Twelve Days of Christmas" first appeared in Mirth without Mischief in the early 1780s in England. Grant states that the tune to which these words are sung apparently dates back much further and came from France. Mirth without Mischief describes "The Twelve Days of Christmas" as a type of memory game played by children at that time. A leader recited the first verse, the next child recited the second verse, and so on until someone missed a verse and had to pay some kind of penalty in the game. There was no religious significance.

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    A special thanks to my son Tony, for allowing me to mark up his hand!

    Now everyone sing............

    On the first day of Christmas my True Love gave to me...............

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    Have a great weekend...........

    And stop by

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    To Wish her a Very Happy Birthday!


December 12, 2008

  • Fingerprints of Winter..............a repost from my life 2006


     

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    Everyday is a fingerprint in time. Some stay, some wash away. Even in the repetitive world, something must change everyday.

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    The moon grows a little bigger. The trees get a little taller. The birds sing a little louder. The wallet gets a little smaller.

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    As we approach Christmas and the dawn of a New Year, we look back on the fingerprints of life. Look forward to fingerprints in the New Year.

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    Enjoy the prints left behind. Create new ones while in your prime. Cherish the new beginnings of life, for everyday is a fingerprint in time.

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     Peace and Blessings to All!

    Heading home today...looking forward to my future.

    I will be around to visit everyone this weekend.

    Hope you all have a wonderful day!


December 9, 2008

  • Man in the Moon....


     

    Last night I stared at the moon and thought of you.

    I realized that you are both the same in some strange way.

     

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    You See: The moon lights up the night sky, and you light up my life.

     

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    The moon can look like the brightest star in the sky, and you are the brightest star in my life.

     

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    The moon is far away from Earth, and you are far, far away from me. But just like I can see the moon so close, you have this way of staying close to my heart.

     

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    The moon makes me think of special things, and you fill my dreams with so much passion.

     

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     And even though I see the moon, I don't know how to explain it but I see you too.

     

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    As I write these few things you and the moon have in common, I know now and forever when I look at the moon I will see you.

     

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    Today I head over to set up for Ecobuild! 

    What are you doing today?


     

December 7, 2008

December 6, 2008

  • Leap of Faith...........


     

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    It is said that our Creator speaks to us in many ways, through sacred writings, friends, family and sometimes even music.  I have been experiencing more changes in my life lately, all good, and a far cry from where I was a year ago, as many of you remember.

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    Like many people, I’m anxious to move out into the cruel and unknown world.  But I have felt that my Creator is prompting me to take those steps forward. Today I begin questioning my own abilities.  I wasn’t sure that I had the gifts or talents to do the work that my Creator was asking, so in my heart I was going through some resistance. 

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    I was sitting at my desk reading a book that a special friend had recommended, and listening to the random tunes on Imeem.com, when a song started playing.

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    “I am Ready” by Twila Paris.  This song expresses our going forth into the world to love and serve.  This song and the moment that I was in, capture my heart and I felt it was responding to what my Creator is doing in my life.

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    I found myself responding, “Hey, I want to do what You’re asking me to do, and I don’t want to hold back anymore.”

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    I need to hear myself say those words, because I’ve had a tendency to hold my arms in close and protect myself.  But I also know that the only protection I truly have is my Creator.  I know it is silly to hold back and be afraid of anything my Creator wants me to do. But refusing to move forward creates fear also.  It’s the opposite of what you would expect. 

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    So at this moment I am sitting here, thankful for the many things that have come into my life, a wonderful new career, a company that is still growing and thriving, an education that I am still healthy to pursue, a special someone that I think of often and hope to share more with, a wonderful loving son and daughter-in-law. 

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    I also think about the hardships, the pain and the battles, for those too are what made me able to accomplish what I am striving for today.

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    As the song came to an end, my son popped his head into the room and said, “Mom, I am really proud of you, just stay focused and have confidence.”

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    Yes, my dear Xanga friends, our Creator speaks to us in many ways…remember to take the time to listen.

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    Staying on the chosen path is a release and I know my Creator is going with me.

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    My job is to take care of the possible and

    trust God with the impossible.