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First I would like to thank everyone for your hugs....love and prayers...where would I be without my Xanga family and friends....love and peace to all of you!

I push away from
time to time.  It is a normal reaction
for me.
I crave so much and yet I have given up more than enough in this lifetime.
I have shown you my true self and I have hidden nothing from you.
I'm not a bad person. I do have a good heart. Maybe I am speaking out of guilt.
No, it's not guilt. You've seen my heart and you've felt what I can give.

I sometimes feel like a clear sky that is empty and solid blue.
Waiting for foggy winds or a drizzle of rain. Even a bunny shaped cloud would
be nice.
I try to control my horizon but I cannot stop my sun from rising or setting.
I have been myself and if I hurt you in the process, I did not mean to.

To have me is not to give to me.
To have me is not to entertain me.
To have me is not to capture me.
To have me is nothing more than to love me.

You cannot capture the cool breeze of the wind.
You cannot capture the bright shine of the sun.
You cannot capture the rhythmic waves of a shore.
All of these are meant to be free and constant, never ending

So...

Hold your hands out and feel my breeze.
Sit and feel the warmth of my sunset and appreciate its beauty.
Lay and bathe in the waves that lap against my shore.

This is who I am.

This is me.

This is how I have to be.

This is how to hug me, to kiss me, make love to me, and take me.

Never ending……..

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Tonight
I lost a best friend and I knew in that moment, the moment I saw her
laying in that hospital bed with no hope, I knew that my life would never be
the same...so quick so unexpected...last night we took pictures of sunsets...tonight she was gone.

I stayed there till the night fell,
Don’t worry I sat by you,
The life support slowly draining out,
There was nothing I could do,

You drifted in and out of sleep,
I brushed your hair back from your eyes,
You weren't even there to see me,
Not even around to soothe my cries,

And here I was shedding pity,
On my own and not for you,
I stayed there till the night fell,
But there was really nothing I could do,

It's when I'm listening to the lovely silence of the
night,

That all my thoughts turn to you,
as they so often do,

I can't seem to ever  stop them,

so I don't try to any more,

so I just let them come and cover me like a warm blanket
that comforts,

warms,
and helps me to sleep
peacefully

You see, no matter what,

you will always be with me,

it doesn't matter where you are,
or where you will be,
what you have said,
or where you make your bed,

you still are a part of me,

and always will be,

that is just the way it is my sweet,

love is just that way

I accept this now…I get it…and peace has found my soul

I love you babe…

I can hear you now, right now say…

Me too

Hope you all had a Great Good Friday!

I will be around tomorrow...

until then off to bed....

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Happy St. Patty's Day!

 

There once was a Limerick Chain
Whose efforts were no way in vain
I just picked up the pen
Wrote what Limerick Poets yen
Aye! Now, here comes the joyous refrain!

Please hook on to the limerick chain.

Search through your bright little brains.
Write at least one silly limerick
Please do it quick,

For St. Patrick’s Day will soon be far away!

 

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These pictures have been taken over the many times I have stayed in Las Vegas...enjoy!

Back From Vegas and I find myself asking...what is it I love about Vegas...

The Beautiful Moutains....

The night life...

Perhaps the fact that  Las Vegas has THE GREATEST mid mod houses in the nation?

Uncle Jack LeVine is a realtor who runs the Vintage Las Vegas blog, which I read every day. Yes, Jack, I really do! This is his listing. $495,000. Click here to see the online sales brochure. Thanks, Uncle Jack!

And thanks for letting me view this home!

Love the Vintage Rat Pack Homes!

Perhaps it is the beautiful carved architecture...even if much of it is styroform...looks real to me...lol

Maybe because you feel like you are everywhere in the world in just this one city....

Or you have the chance to get lucky and win big money....

Maybe it is because they have the best fireworks.......

or maybe it is because my son and daughter - in - law got married there...

Not sure what it is but I love Vegas and always have...

This trip one of the highlights was visiting the City Center.

I got to tour the job site...

We all found this interesting...the towel hooks above the thermostat and air vents...

this is the area that will have shops...when completed...

The suites that are complete are beautiful...

Another Highlight was visiting the UA Training Center

Did not take this picture...borrowed it off the web site.

An exceptionally designed educational center.

I promise to visit everyone tomorrow and catch up....

Love to you all........

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I am still a child,

despite my growing age.

I still watch cartoons

And sometimes I am still afraid.

I am in my years of youth

And I enjoy most every day

50 years of truth,

I watched them pass away.

 

I am a kid with interests,

Like building forts and such,

and if you ask about candy,

I like it very much.

 

I am young, and funny

Especially when I want to be

Yet that little girl inside me,

you won’t always see.

 

Sometimes I think of things

Only children think about

Like dragons, knights and kings,

And tales like Jack and his bean sprout.

 

I am also very curious,

Constantly thinking and asking why?

and if I don’t get my way sometimes

I kick, pout, and cry.

 

 

Though years have come and gone,

There are plenty more to come,

I pray to keep this childlike mind

alive in the woman I have become.

So tell me what did you guys look like as a Child?

Heading back to Vegas this week, hope it will be a great one for everybody!

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in the middle
of a twist
of fate

you are like

the wind
blowing soft
and

hesitates...

touching
silent
but

with no restraint...

and you whisper
to me
gently,

'patience..'

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What is a life without love?
Is it idle time spent watching memories dance across the plastered ceiling?
Or is it lonely nights when your true emotions unwillingly become revealing?
Is it the desperation of watching opportunities missed?
Or is it your hopeful nature, longing for bliss?

Is it the piercing sorrow you feel while watching the past?
Or is it something much more complex, just beyond my grasp?
Is it being left alone to clean the mess of a heart shattered?
Or is it the condition of the fragments, torn and tattered?

Is it the solitary hours which make restless my soul?
Or is it your loving heart I have been waiting to hold?
Could it be that none of these reasons serve my question true?
Because a life without love, is a life without YOU.

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Like a water-colour painting in the rain
When it's beauty disappears
Proving all is transient in passing
Not all as it appears

 

The dance never lasts forever
For all too soon the music dies
Or the rainbow that was so beautiful
Can fade and disappear before your eyes

 

That special flower, the tree you love
The spring sun that keeps you warm
Can be shredded and disappear so quickly
In the face of a raging storm

 

A diamonds gloss, can grow so dull
If it can't capture light
Or a smile can't illuminate ones day
When only used in darkest night

 

So perhaps everything we love in life is transient
Nothings meant to last forever
So enjoy the oh so fleeting joys they bring
But regret their passing, Never

 

 

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Kiss me in the summer sun
caress me in the night
Rock me gently in your arms,
Love me til' daylight.
Lay me down and shower me
with whispers of your love,
Lay me in the summer's grass,
wish on the stars above.

Look so deep into my eyes...
And tell me what you find,
Let me give to you my dear
my body...heart...my mind,
Take me into worlds beyond, and
Never set me free,
Forget the world, And all it holds...
Just fall in love with me.

Happy Monday!

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